I want someone to take me out for coffee. I want the rain outside to cling to my neck and I want to just sit across from one another and let hours drain and drain and drain and while we’re talking I want to just keep repeating your name just before everything I say just to make sure I’ve got it right and just to memorize how it rolls off of my tongue and you can tell me of how you fret when the streets fill with fall or how she let you go and let you suffer and then we can walk arm and arm and for once I’ll let my hair tangle across my eyes and nose and knot with dry air and let it be and for once I’ll acknowledge the gloom as it accompanies us and for once I’ll be okay with this weather and this sadness and this dreary day to weeks to months and we will part ways with a quiet kiss to my cheek and I will be able to silently and contentedly watch you leave and be calmed and comforted by the lonely bed that waits for me a few flights up.
And the sheets might still be warm with your legs, but I’d prefer the cold.
well, maybe not everyone. But I was helping my friend TA this morning in his class and had someone ask me, “Are you Eva, from Bio Society?”
me: “Uhh… yes, I am.”
Mind you I’ve never seen this person in my life, this wasn’t my lab section and they were like, “Yeah, you’re pretty famous on campus…”
me: “lol… uh, wut? I hope in a good way.”
random girl: “Yeah, don’t worry.”
Like, I don’t understand why. I just spend all of my time in the damn science building and am a total book nerd.
And then last night, I found out that apparently EVERYONE knows about and my ex gf because we were the only interscholastic gay couple on campus and therefore the unofficial mascots of everything LGBT related. Not to mention we dated for the majority of my time here. So now our “break up” is the topic of conversation. Amongst people who I have never met, nor seen before in my life.
Well, shit. can I just go back to my lab and focus on my work now?
Reblogging because I’m the other half of the former “interscholastic gay couple on campus.” That shit is weird.